"Inveniam viam aut faciam" : I will either
find a way, or I shall make one
KEEP THE FAITH
Do you ever feel like it is all
just too much? Like enough is enough. I have recently been through some
fairly hectic changes personally and guess what? there are more coming.
fsckin' wonderful. In all honesty there have been times through this
that I wanted to react to things in a bad way. Someone pisses me off,
and they never know how close they came to me almost wiping their
entire infrastructure out. I did a simple war-drive where I am now, I
found 2300+ wireless networks. Cool, only 550 encrypted, and over 200
just plain default - I mean, do you know how much you can make from
renting out a botnet?
I know what I sound like - some
whiny tech, no-one appreciates me, bitch and moan, phear me, etc. I get
it, really I do. But you know what, thats life. I realised
everyone has to deal with know-it-alls, everyone has to kiss someone
else's arse, everyone has to make choices. Thats the kicker. Making a
choice. When I say I could create a botnet, well who could'nt with 200
default access points. When I say I could wipe out the infrastructure,
well so could any script kiddie. But the fact of the matter is I have a
choice, the fact that I could do something does not mean I should.
Ability does not equal permission.
So yes, I do sometimes feel like
giving up, I do sometimes feel like going to the dark side..
..well yes, they have cookies!
Seriously, I believe it is only by going through such a time and seeing
if you can still "keep the faith" that you find out if you really want
to be in the game. And having supportive people helps loads.
So at the end of it, yes shit
happens, and yes it sucks, but try to hang in it, it has to get better.